Under...Water

So yeah; this was me loyal to everything and everyone except the one that could save me when I was drowning. I was Johnny on the spot begging to be accepted and proving my loyalty to things and people that could never fill the voids or really give me anything. I constantly avoided your voice! I constantly avoided God! I never intended to drown but I never intended on being truly loyal to God either. Honestly speaking, I was “too busy”, “didn’t know what to say”, or my favorite “I’m going to later”. However, later never came! And I kept begging for acceptance from things that he PURPOSELY made sure never would embrace me the way he would.

Then it happened! I was under water; hopeless, hurt, defeated, and brokenhearted! Then In an instant, I looked up and the hand that I had constantly pushed away was the only one there to pull me up! I will never forget you how you rescued me and said, “I will never leave you even if you wanted me too” And I did! I couldn’t understand why the person that I pushed away so much was constantly the one who rescued ME! But the lesson I learned in a matter of second is that God is the most consistent, LOYAL, unchanging person I could ever meet; even when we are inconsistent, unloyal, changing towards him. Grace and mercy daily brings me to tears. He easily could have left me but NO, he came!

So just think. Are you truly loyal? Is acceptance important? Yes, we are very loyal and are desperate for acceptance from everything possible but from the one who can save us! We will beg, buy, and compromise who we truly are at the risk of never getting a worthy return. God is the only one who never loses sight of who we are! We may and often do but HIS LOVE waits patiently, endures the hurt we constantly causes him because we push him away, and still reaches out a hand to pull us to safety.

So yeah, I was drowning because of ….me….and he saved me and introduced me to him!