I'm Everything but....ME!

It's very interesting to me how many people look the same, sound the same, dress the same, and act the same in my day to day life. Yes, I'm guilty of it too!

Look at the left picture. Yes, that girl is me, Charmeka, she looks happy, right? She's isn't real extra. She is a pretty mild-mannered chick.

Stop It!

That's what I APPEARED to be, but I struggled day after day with who I really was. I didn't know what I liked or disliked. I lived my life subject to man's opinion. And I switched identities like I changed my underwear! I hid from myself and live in the dark. As a result, I would become who I was around; if I was around ratchet people, I was ratchet. If I was around aggressive people I could be very aggressive, and the list goes on! I was experiencing a huge Identity crisis! So, as I always did when I was aggravated, unfulfilled, and tired of life beating up; I asked a question! LORD, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME! Of course, because he had already told me, the answer did not come immediately! But when it did it made perfect sense.

Let's say it together; Covetousness!

You may or may not have heard this word but let me explain the meaning…. you greedy in a nutshell boo! I wanted everything except what God had given me! To me, your life (depending on who I was trying to be that day) was better! I know you probably think no that isn't me but it may be! I was so unsatisfied, unfulfilled, and chaotic trying to be and do everything I saw it was ridiculous. I couldn't hear God for myself, so I just went wherever the wind blew. It's a sad occasion when you live SOMEONE else's life! It's even more sickening when you live your life not knowing who you truly are and what you are created to do. Everybody having sex, drinking, smoking, buying bundles, and living a pointless life. How about you choose to do differently! If you are in this place, take the time to let God guide you into knowing who he created you to be and the purpose he places on the inside of you.

So now let's look at the right pic. Yes, that girl is Charmeka, but a lot has changed! She is living life with purpose! She's NOT hiding anymore! She is happy in her own skin! She is finally ok with not being included in the clique and she decided to be the clique. No everything is not perfect for her. Yes, she has a long way to go but guess what? The day she decided to finally listen to God and be who he created her to be, life became so sweet!

There is only one you and the moment you stop being that or never become that is the day your purpose becomes obsolete. Nobody can accomplish what God said he wanted you to accomplish.

Signed, The girl on the Right